“You’re never too old to fall in love.” I couldn’t understand that: I’m already in love with my husband; I’m already in love with my GodDaughters, my Godson, my nieces, my
nephews…I’m already in love with my family.
For the first time I traveled internationally…alone. Stepping onto that airplane to Panama, I could not begin to understand what was in store. All I knew was Sansara was 5 hours away from Panama city and its a yoga retreat that would take me away from reality for a week – perhaps a detox, a refresher. Little did I know, through the chaos of a ten-hour bus ride, no hair appliances, no cellular service or wi-fi connection, multiple power outages, “interesting” events of Carnivale, nightly monster-size cockroaches, etc., I would actually find….peace.
It is my nature to sacrifice and give my whole self to the death of my energies. For seven days I did not calculate my daily moves in consideration of others’ needs of me. I found the confidence to close the door on hopeless situations that cause more heartache than love. Some people don’t understand the scars they leave on my heart through the harsh judgments they make without even trying to know who I am, but their criticisms do not define me, and I still deserve love. Hurt people project hurt, so how others judge me is directly reflective of how they see their own selves.
Panama reignited my self-love, something I didn’t realize I’d neglected through a lifetime of servicing others. I allowed myself to fall in love with strangers and strange things. In return, God Blessed me with lifelong connections with souls that reflect my own, as well as a comforting change in perspective: this is my life.
Panama….in all this, I fell in love with the most important person: me. “Love Breeds Love”… We are all born happy…all loving, lovable, lovely.
Special thanks to my BFF for always reminding me of the courage that’s already inside me: ♥ Hana Cha ♥
xoxoxo
~Linh ~
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